What to do? Maybe I was wrong (Part I).

So I haven’t posted anything on here in a while, I know some of you that do read (or don’t) maybe have been like “hmmm where is this guy? Why am I following him? etc., etc.” I want to first say sorry for not posting. I’ve been working in my classes trying to pass and get the concepts of learning my instructor(s) teaching styles. (Sigh) This post will be a little different from the others. I’ve been going through a really tough time in my life. Back in July I suffered a really painful lost, that didn’t hit until the last week weeks of my last term. I knew he, who is my uncle, was gone but the reality of it didn’t sink in until about that time. I was extremely depressed, and as you may or may not know (from older posts) I am not the most confident person and a lot of life’s situations tend to cycle into each to me. like an example would be like if I failed a class or do really bad on an assignment, that’ll make me feel terrible because I felt like things got in my way and that I am worth-less. So same thing applies if I was to do bad on another assignment, I’ll treat that as no one likes me (relationship wise, trying to get a date, girl-friend, etc.) because I’m not good at anything. For some strange reason the same doesn’t apply when doing good on an assignment or passing a class with flying colors (I’m weird…). But so this term in my school has been extremely, ultimately, beyond tough for me and it seems like it’s only getting tougher. Now before you say to yourself, “well that’s college, it’s suppose to be tough”. This is a matter of challenge, this is more of a matter of resources, lack of money, time, and anything else you can think of. Like in previous posts I am an artist, I love art and design. but I love games also. but games have gotten in the way of my passion for art, art will always come before games to me. So when I first started attending my school I asked about the school’s art program and classes dealing with it and they told me that they would have the classes I want and needed (very bad mistake on my part, they sucked me in). I’ll continue will part 2 very soon. Thank you for reading have a good day, evening or night.

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My thoughts on my last term and my up coming term….. today is thursday!

I know I haven’t posted anything in about a week and a few days maybe more but here I sit and think about what’s going on with my schooling and up-coming term. In my last post I kind of Half a** it a little bit because I didn’t care anymore, I was burned out from the stress of those classes, teachers (or instructors as they like to call themselves). However my true thoughts on my last term (it’s not a rant, really) are that, this last term was kind of rough for me. I enjoy our school’s new chairman which is a woman and I can tell she cares to an extent about the students. But I had already psyche myself out because of my pass failures, it’s not that I failed my classes term before last it just I had no motivation at all. I was down and out because of where I felt the industry was/is head to me in my opinion. I’m a concept artist and I’m taking up an interest in storyboard art, I am not a modeler, texture artist, and etc. but I understand basic concepts to get the job done if needed. And because of these positions that make up the industry I started to feel that I had no place in this field, which in terms cycled into a circle of insecurities and other problems that I’ve struggled with in the past. So this term I was not up to it, even with all the changes good and bad, it felt like I just didn’t want to be there. But I went through this term with the best that I could. The instructors there (some of them) just shouldn’t teach, they know their stuff about the industry and the understandings but I feel like the shouldn’t teach it. I think we’ve all had those teachers where they know their material but don’t know how to teach it, to where everyone can understand it. Now with this new up coming term I am not looking forward to it but I’ve learned or at least tried to learn from my mistake(s). I will take this term with a grain of salt and stay to myself and try my best, which is all I can do in the end. Hopefully these instructors do the same.

Final!! The End… (of my term).

It’s the final week of the term and to end it off I will share which guess speaker from my classes I like the best. Every speaker was great in their own way but the one that made me feel good about this industry would probably be Evan Cox. He displayed a lot of charisma and shared a lot of truths whether they were good or bad; he told the class that the industry is tough and will only be tougher if not shown enough heart.

Zach Kuzmanic and Alek Castelain: EA (Electronic Arts)!!

So last class I had the pleasure (along with my class) to meet two employees from EA. I believe Zach obtain his position in the company by gaining an intership from them then doing the intership gaining the position. I thought of interships but I’m not sure where I want to be at; Whether that be at a gaming company or a film studio. But a company i would (like to be ) at maybe VanillaWare. Here’s a link to the company.

http://vanillaware.co.jp/

Licensing!!! Woooo the craziness!

We learn and talked about licensing in the game industry and how we should go about signing documents and being careful not to sign anything we can handle. I don’t want to sign off to do something that I really didn’t want to do or find out about things that were or weren’t entitled to me. it’s kind of like the phase “don’t sell your soul to the devil”…. That, I don’t want to do that!
p.s. I didn’t really contribute to this post but the next one… watch out!

Dan Sosnowski: Iron Galaxy!!

Last friday in class I had a chance to meet a game designer by the name of Dan sosnowski. he’s more of a scripter (or as he calls himself, architect) than anything else but his part in game design is very important. This got me thinking (mostly because it was a part of a assignment) To secure my position I would have to work as hard as he did and show strength when the projects get tough. As stated in past posts I want to be an artist, more of a storyboard artist than anything but an artist none the less.

The Future: Triple A studio or Indie developer?!

We’ve been learning about budging in the game industry as of late and to make games triple A or indie requires money. To talk about my future in the industry is a little on the akward side to me now because I never really knew where I wanted to go in the industry position wise. I just knew that I wanted to do something dealing with art and my hobby of video games (which soon turned into a passion). I grew up with a nintendo 64 in the house hold (which you probably already know where I’m going with this). A dream/plan of mines has always been to work for/with nintendo; they make such beautiful games and has the most loyal and loving community. Their ideal storytelling is built up of metaphors, intrepertation, and imagination; not saying that other companies don’t have this, but that is something I respect and value a lot as a gamer. But over the course of my schooling and learning more about crowdfunding, kickstarters and etc. My dream to work at nintendo has not change but I have opened my options up to starting a indie studio with a few fellow class mates that follow the same passion as I do (though I haven’t found anyone yet, but they’re there). Where I want to be financially in life, the game industry and in the art world is content. I don’t want a lot of money but I want to have enough that I can satisfy my needs and wants when I’m older than I am now. I want to be able to do things for myself, friends, family and strangers. In these worlds I enter I don’t want to be famous… but well known. I want to be the guy/developer/artist that people or fellow artist and/or fellow art enthuses know of and can say “hey that guy name is Stevan Allie right he made such and such or he help create this and that”. So my position in the industry is to be content… Not a lot of money but not to little more neither. I want to make people see things i create from a different aspect from their own, to protect, and help the weak.

Waterfall Vs. agile: which is the groups doing more of?

I feel like my group is doing more of both aglie and waterfall but more of waterfall technique because we as a team let we other know what we are doing and we put all of what we are going to do into account (like a document) then start the work after everyone know what’s to expect. Not saying that aglie isn’t like that either, with aglie within our work we do collaborations with each other to get work completed almost like a producer. I feel like, how my team works, waterfall would be more of a route for our business plan.

“My Competition, and how it sets me apart.”

Reflecting on my position in the game industry I feel I have gain a lot (more) knowledge from being at IADT. I always knew about the game industry and some of its customs, that’s one of the reasons why I want to study game design and create games. Although it didn’t start off that way for me. My plan since I was in the fourth grade was to become artist, I love art, I loved to draw and make people feel a certain way about the work I do and have done. So like anyone I practiced and practiced a lot. In this industry I want to be a concept artist/storyboard artist. My skills towards these aspects of art are decent ( I would be a lot more harder on myself but my instructors and others says that I am good) I could be a lot better though. I have a very bad habit that I need to kick before entering the industry of game design which is being “too hard on myself”. I’ve been told that I have very good storyboards and from a very special instructor I’ve been told that my drawings remind him of Picasso and my storyboards of Frank Miller. So I live to believe that my art is getting better. My competition is tough from a stand point of very talented artists male and female alike. Though most of the students from IADT are more interested in the 3D aspect of game design, there are those like myself who are more toward the concept part of the industry and hope to excel at that part. My comparison to my competition would be more of me having more of a passionate thing for my art than them (not saying that they aren’t passionate) but we all know that one person(s) that is good at everything they touch, well it’s like that at IADT for the concept artist. There are some who art is just wonderful and the detail they put into their work is amazing; and then here I am struggling to become half of what they are because I can’t do/express myself half as good as they do (another bad habit, comparing myself to them).
On a technical part if I had to rate it on a scale of 1-10 I am a 5 1/2. I have a basic understanding of everything I need to know about concept art. My competition would be a 7 or and 8 because though they may be in the same boat as me, they have more availability than I do; meaning that they have jobs to go to art related things and money to purchase drawing tablets and etc. (though it is not all of them) . My steps are to stay passionate about what I want to become and how I want others to see me and my art work. I plan to buy a drawing tablet to start working in photoshop and illustrator, but I don’t only plan to do just that I plan to go back and work with paints, pastels and charcoal to better my experience with art as a whole.

Groups! Gotta love em’

Last friday groups planned and decided on a game idea. My first impression of my group was this is going to be crazy and maybe a little bad because of all the different style clashing to generate on ideal game. We (surprisingly) came up with a game idea fitting each of our wants. One or two people in the group were pretty dominate but everyone pretty much got their opinions and ideas out. I don’t and didn’t really mind the choice of my group members. My best experience so far.. would be coming up with the story for the concept. My worst experience.. I don’t think I’ve had one yet but what I didn’t like was at times of trying to think of a group name or game idea and everyone is skeptical,it was hard to get everyone to see what you’re talking about when you want to take inspiration from different games without your group thinking the name/game is bad. I feel the most important thing about teamwork is Communication. Being able to let your members know everything is very essential.